The Play
GreenWitch
crazypagan
Act I:  The First Date
 
Excitement, nervousness, a bit of anxiety......
You go out, a great time was had by all, you are thinking, "That was great!".  The next morning you send a "thanks for a great time last night" e-mail and then NOTHING.  Days turn into weeks.....

Act II:  The Disappearing Act
What went wrong?  We had a great time...didn't we?  He said we'd do it again....Was my breath funky?   Did he feel that little EXTRA around the middle when he gave me a hug?  

It's truly torturous to not know what happened.  How are we supposed to "fix" whatever it is, if we don't know?  On the other hand, maybe nothing is wrong with US...maybe it's THEM.  But still, we need to know.  I would rather have a polite, "Had a great time, but I didn't feel the 'spark'." We might make excellent friends...or fix each other up with other friends.  We might hit it off down the road later if we ran into each other...but to just DISAPPEAR.  

If he does that (or she depending on who you are) then they definitely do not deserve a second chance....no matter how tempting they are.  And if they are so gutless that they can't be honest and forthright...I don't think I'd want them around ;P 

Dating as a single parent
GreenWitch
crazypagan
As if dating alone wasn't a big enough challenge....along comes dating as a single parent. 

Living in a small town where I did NOT grow up, I have no family or friends to beg or barter for child care.  I'm thinking of starting a local club of sorts for single moms, SPN (Single Parent Network) I'll call it :)  I'm not sure what all it would cover...but I know babysitting is going to be in there.  A close network of single parents helping each other out...something along the lines of, "Hey, I'll watch your child Friday night if you watch mine Sat night"...something like that anyway.  I would like to see this happen without the exchange of CASH.  Single parents are strapped as it is...if we help each other out, we will establish respect for each other as individuals and grow friendships.  Of course, there will be those who try to take advantage...

Single parents have so many more issues to deal with:
1.  Money--your money isn't as free as other peoples.
2.  Babysitter--how do you know your children will be safe with this person!
3.  Home earlier than you would normally so you can be up with the kids the next day.
4.  It's not just about YOU, it's about them too.  You are a package deal...what if he doesn't like them, or they don't like him?  How soon is too soon to introduce them?
5.  Then there is the EX to deal with...always a complication when children are involved.  And the ex's family....
6.  Time, not just finding time period...but finding the RIGHT time.
7.  Modeling...oh yeah, I need to be a good example.


I get so frustrated at times.  Anyone have any ideas for the SPN?

I feel I am a good person.  I live by the Golden Rule, I try to be funny and have a good time, I"m pretty easy going, I like adventure.  I think I am good company...and I think this b/c I spend so much time with myself ;P  I don't want to settle...I want to find a complimentary match out there, or no match at all.  I would rather be alone than with the wrong person...and I've spent a lot of time doing THAT.  Just because you feel comfortable with someone, doesn't mean they are your match...it means they are your friend....period.  I've spent the past couple of years analyzing my relationships and working through work books,etc, trying to figure this stuff out.  Thank you John Gray and Dr. Phil :P  I think I've got it.  I'm ready to move forward.

I just need to figure out how guys think :/

New LJ
GreenWitch
crazypagan

I'm not using this LJ anymore, but keeping the account active for The Enchanted Circle.  I have started a new LJ, but it's set to private.  All my day to day "stuff" will be on FaceBook :)

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New group: The Enchanted Circle
GreenWitch
crazypagan
Created a new LJ community group today called, The Enchanted Circle.  Open for enrollment!
http://community.livejournal.com/cross_quarters/

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Closing The Enchanted Grove
GreenWitch
crazypagan
Once again I am closing The Enchanted Grove at Yahoo.  I am going to see if I can "move" it to LJ and change CrazyPagan into a group instead of a journal since I rarely use it.

tired of being nice...
GreenWitch
crazypagan

I’m tired of being nice.

I seem to be unable to help myself from being helpful. I’m sure pop psychology has some name for this. It’s probably called, AHD (Abundantly Helpful Disorder) or something. Today I resisted picking up a sign out in front of the shop that the wind blew over.  I'm still feeling guilty....

 

Whatever happened to people showing consideration and appreciation to others? Whatever happened to “The Golden Rule”? Nobody ever says “thank you” anymore! Nobody says, "Please"!  I don’t do things for a pat on the back, but after almost 40 years of not feeling appreciated, it gets a bit old. And why SHOULD I do things for people? Or businesses? And why am I worried about it in the first place?

 

Here’s the proverbial “straw that broke the camel’s back”: The other day in a restaurant, a baby’s shoe fell off when a young couple walked by my table. Several people saw the shoe fall off, but they just went back to the business of chowing down and chatting. I, feeling disgusted with the other people for their lack of caring, got out of my seat, retrieved the shoe, and took it over to the young couple.   I said, “Your baby’s shoe fell off” as I handed it to the dad (who was holding the baby); he just looked at me, took the little white shoe out of my hand, and dived straight back into the conversation with his wife (girlfriend, baby momma…whatever). They just ignored me, not a “thanks for your trouble”, not even a smile to show their appreciation. I guess I shouldn’t have bothered. I guess I’ll join the ranks of the soulless uncaring. 

 

When I’m at out shopping, I’m always picking things up and straightening things. I am a tad obsessive about things like that, although from the looks of my house or car it would be hard to believe (since Zack was born anyway). Thinking back on this, I can see how people have mistakenly thought I worked at these establishments.   Of course, I always tried to help the people anyway! I should get a check from Wal-Mart, Target, Borders, Home Depot and several stores at the mall….

 

I’m constantly picking up stray packages of food off the floor at the grocery store, or clothes off the floor at the mall, straightening up books at the book store. I used to do it without thought….maybe it made me feel good about myself on a subconscious level (remember…AHD!) Now, well…now I just feel annoyed that the majority of people are so inconsiderate. Why are they so messy? Why are they so rude to leave a mess for store employees? Yeah, it’s their job to make sure the store looks nice…but show some consideration!

 

A further testament of my slide towards the Dark Side is my lack of sharing. Not objects, although I’ve always been a bit towards the stingy side (because things would come back destroyed, damaged, or wouldn’t come back at all)…but of information. For example, I work in a school, my office is up in the “front office” area….a parent came in and inquired about directions to a place I was familiar enough with to direct them to. I just sat back in my office and didn’t say a thing. Part of me feels terrible about this, but another part does not. The thing is, if I over hear someone talking and go out to assist, I get treated as if I’m being rude and interrupting. So, why bother? Sounds petty, doesn’t it? And it feels that way now that I’m writing it all down. I guess that is one of the good things about journals….

 

As a nurse, I pretty much experience a TOTAL lack of appreciation for everything I do. I think that is one of the reasons there is such a high turn over in nursing…especially hospital nursing. I could give countless examples in this area. I won’t start though…because I’ll never finish. 

 

This rant is over…b/c it’s already too long and people have lives to live.......


I have a house!
GreenWitch
crazypagan
WooHoo!  I closed on my house today!  It only took 30 minutes and everything went very smoothly :)    This weekend I'll be painting ceilings if anyone is bored and lookin for someting to do!!!

Anyone know anywhere where I can get a deal on carpet, hardwood floors (laminet), ceramic tile and/or kitchen cabinets (wall not base)?
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Facebook
GreenWitch
crazypagan
A friend of mine told me to get on Facebook, so I did...and I've run in to so many people on there!  It's crazy!!!  I've been on there all day....

House situation is still going well :)  I can't wait to get out of this place...it's too cold!  Speaking of cold..I'm really not looking forward to moving in the cold :(  But at least I'll have HEAT!!!!!!!

I need to find a home for a cut kitty...it's a baby to the blue russian...here's a pic.  She's 4 weeks old in the pic, but will be 14 weeks old this Monday.  Her name is Lucy Devil Girl :D
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Elephant sanctuary
GreenWitch
crazypagan
So sweet...

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house is ALMOST MINE!
GreenWitch
crazypagan

Well...just two more weeks and the house is MINE!  WOOT!  I'm so excited :D  This summer (after much painting, new carpet and cabinets) there will be a get together for anyone who wants to come :)

Totally off topic...check this out for a laugh:
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